I promised you something

I told myself I wouldn't write tonight but I lied

I promised myself that I would never believe those depressing stories
I left what was important to me a few years ago; I should have asked that one question
That one question that's still eating away at my mind today but I didn't so it's irrelevant

I couldn't sleep last night it was like before when I would never sleep ever
Just because I didn't have a reason to wake up the next day
I woke up in the middle of the night surviving a suicidal nightmare
I opened my eyes just before I hit the ground after jumping off the roof of a hotel
The bad thing was that what woke me up was a text message from an unknown number
"Live another day, it's not over yet." I did the usual "Wrong number." Text back
Put a pillow over my head, drowning out the sound of everything and hit the ground

What if this was all a dream
A "Maybe it will end soon." dream
And I'll wake up
This is all just a trial
Someone wants to know if you can handle the real thing

I've decided to wake up before it all ends too quickly

I hope there's a guide to life somewhere along the lines
Successful, happy, wonderful life

Maybe you'll wake up right before you end it all
Or maybe you don't want that second chance